It doesn’t help anybody…

I am for example depressed, have trauma and lead an unhappy life with no purpose and that is filled with feelings of deep inadequacy.

And I ask myself… could it be that I want to be trans just because the idea of being a woman due to trauma has become something that feels safer to me (even if I’m man) than the idea of being with a woman and my wish to transition is just so I can fulfill some deep seated need… essentially instead of feeling adequate and confident enough to express my attraction to a woman and love a woman in a relationship, I instead try to love myself as a woman because I’m scared of failing or being inadequate as a heterosexual man

That plus my father’s abuse due to his extreme hypermasculine expectations and my sexual trauma from pornography have made me afraid and alienated from the idea of being a man and from heterosexuality.

And then I developed dysphoria after the fact… I literally said “okay I want to be a woman because I think then I can fulfill this deep seated need, but trans women need to have dysphoria so now I should start to feel dysphoria” and then and only then after starting to imitate what people said they were dysphoric about, did I start feeling it which to me seems like I induced dysphoria artificially.

Why… why isn’t that a viable explanation!

  • DysphoriaGirlOP
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    14 days ago

    Okay… good point but if transition will lead me to a lower chance at love and safety and more pain and the desire comes from a pathological place in the first place, then maybe not doing it is better… right?

        • doombay
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          14 days ago

          I feel like a lot of people have said it. I think you should get on Estrogen, but I don’t think I can convince you.

          • DysphoriaGirlOP
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            14 days ago

            What do you think is the primary reason I wont just take Estrogen? What do you think is the problem here?

            • doombay
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              13 days ago

              Idk I’m not a therapist. Would you take Estrogen if you had it in front of you rn?

              • DysphoriaGirlOP
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                13 days ago

                I did think that way a couple of months ago, that I would immediately do it… but now… I am not sure… I am very sure I wouldnt and would first want to idk prove to myself that this is the right choice… somehow gain knowledge without experience… think myself to a conclusion first before ever taking a step…

                • doombay
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                  13 days ago

                  but that’s impossible and it’s not happening.