It is not about repping…it is about feeling like maybe I am not even trans at all and that my supposed transness was just a way of trying to deal with my repressed heterosexuality and fear of relationships…
(it feels like you have your assumption about me being a trans woman and then simply deny everything from that backwards instead of idk looking at my case and examining its elements)
You’re just insisting on this without explaining it. You say that this isn’t how dysphoria works but first of all, we need to ask ourselves if I even have genuine dysphoria and why supposedly this (displacement of heterosexual feelings. Shifting from attraction to identification because that feels safer) is not a way in which dysphoria could emerge. I didn’t have dysphoria before identifying as a troon and before engaging with it all… I literally started out thinking “what are people dysphoric about” and imitated that because I thought “I need dysphoria to be trans” and then cultivated it within me… so it seems very much like me setting a standard for how I should look and that then being the reason for the “dysphoria”
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It is not about repping…it is about feeling like maybe I am not even trans at all and that my supposed transness was just a way of trying to deal with my repressed heterosexuality and fear of relationships…
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And why doesnt it work like that… ?
(it feels like you have your assumption about me being a trans woman and then simply deny everything from that backwards instead of idk looking at my case and examining its elements)
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You’re just insisting on this without explaining it. You say that this isn’t how dysphoria works but first of all, we need to ask ourselves if I even have genuine dysphoria and why supposedly this (displacement of heterosexual feelings. Shifting from attraction to identification because that feels safer) is not a way in which dysphoria could emerge. I didn’t have dysphoria before identifying as a troon and before engaging with it all… I literally started out thinking “what are people dysphoric about” and imitated that because I thought “I need dysphoria to be trans” and then cultivated it within me… so it seems very much like me setting a standard for how I should look and that then being the reason for the “dysphoria”