https://tranistan.com/comment/304938

My repper, transphobic and self hating rants… are not a mantra… it’s a horrific accusation… that I am just a pervert and by all mean I am a degenerate subhuman and its an accusation the entire world can and will make against me… I don’t have childhood signs or androphilic female sexuaity during puberty or anyhting I can give as counter evidence. I’m dammed in this court. I want to transition, desperately but not only am I afraid it won’t work. But also that I’m not justified in doing it or don’t deserve it or are just mentally ill… and I try to gather evidence for my case but then the mere presence of my sexuality feels like a death sentence proof that I’m wrong… that the accusation is true.