• Fuwarei
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    20 days ago

    No because I’m a 2 week hrt boymoder and look like a weirdo ugly twink, not seen seriously as a guy nor a woman and being seen as a guy hurts a lot plus I’m like half deaf autistic in conversations, depends on my mood really

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      20 days ago

      the weirdo ugly twink part is how i feel now over 3.5 years hrt and girlmoding lol. 2 weeks is so early it’ll prob get better

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        20 days ago

        No I’m just ugly as my nose is like horrible with a hump, idk weird forehead, assymetrical jaw, oblong head. I prob have too much honfidence as a coping mechanism. I’m afraid that I actually look like what I perceive myself as when I’m feeling dysphoric. Like it is hard for me to judge because my mind does like a reverse bdd sometimes. Like I see two versions of myself. I fear that hrt won’t change my face. I’ll need ffs either way. How tf do I moneymax??? Even if I become a surgeon or smth I’ll take years. Debt for ffs?

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          20 days ago

          i’m feel that too i’m ugly but occasionally i have honfidence. i can’t really fix any of my issues though since im post ffs i got a full time job and was really lucky with covid stocks and was able to pay for it + taking on some debt.