Yeah sorry I don’t think repping is humanly possible. Literally all waking hours of my day were spent mulling over tranny thoughts. I can’t fucking get this shit out of my mind.

Please how do I make it stop I don’t wanna be a tranny I don’t wanna honmode I don’t wanna get hatecrimed but at the same time I want boobs and hips and wanna bf that sees me as a woman and I want srs and ffs and GOD IT NEVER ENDS

  • doombay
    2·
    11 days ago

    Not really when you’re on HRT and spend time on trans spaces no. I was repping at my best when I thought a better life literally wasn’t possible and I was learning to accept it (failed at that). No tranny spaces for this moid I was on video games all day and not giving a shit abt my appearance

    • ✿hannah✿OP
      2·
      11 days ago

      The tranny curse… You choose between

      1. Trooning out
      2. Suicide
      3. Repping - > rotted brain sissy fetish

      Tbh I’m gonna die anyways might as well troooon out

      • doombay
        2·
        11 days ago

        I will kms if I can ever guarantee I won’t be buried under a male name

  • ManmoderHell
    2·
    11 days ago

    The best reppers are those that completely erase the concept of trans from their mind. The type who obsess never last!

    • ✿hannah✿OP
      2·
      11 days ago

      Repping is impossible for me then, isn’t it 🫩🫩🫩🫩

      Its either honmode or sui, that’s my future

      • ManmoderHell
        2·
        11 days ago

        If you can’t handle manmode like me(its tough af) then yeah it’s likely…but who knows how you’ll feel as time goes on!

        • ✿hannah✿OP
          2·
          11 days ago

          Idk if I can handle manmode, I can get through the day kind of but I am more depressed than ever and I don’t have any hobbies and don’t do anything unless I have to. It’s a pretty meaningless existence. I have a wardrobe and makeup but I’m not out to my aunt and uncle so I have to do everything in private and its so sad having to hide. My dysphoria will build up through the week after manmoding and I’ll have a breakdown and try on my outfits and take pictures in private like a crossie then I can go back to manmode before the cycle starts again. But the shame and self hatred of being a hon is horrible so I haven’t come out yet (even though they would be 100% supportive.)

          • ManmoderHell
            2·
            11 days ago

            I relate to the depression and no hobbies/real existence. I’ve given up on everything but estrogen, so it’s good that you still do those other things! Too long in manmode and you almost forget you’re trans…not good to get stuck.

            I’m glad they’d at least be supportive! Takes a lil pressure off. Hopefully you can continue to process the pain/shame/trauma and eventually get to a better place❤️

            • ✿hannah✿OP
              2·
              11 days ago

              Thank you so much for the convo ❤️❤️

              I hope you can also get to a better place and start to rekindle your femininity… I would hate to see it snuffed out 🫂

              • ManmoderHell
                2·
                11 days ago

                No problem, always nice to chat with mah 4tranners!! Thanks as well, I hope to get past this slump🫶