Feels like the only way to find accepting people is to brute force it by befriending queer people atp. I’m still kinda scared of someone I know seeing me there as it will be in the most iconic place in my school lmao but it will be fine probs…

Also this might be dumb but do I introduce myself with my deadname or the foid name becuz idk I never uttered the words “I’m trans” or “I’m a woman” out loud before so it’s kinda scary to say something along those lines and by scary I mean I can barely say it even to myself when I’m alone like there is barrier in my throat or something

Anyway I’m sure I’ll get over myself eventually idk I should probs shave my arms and stuff too I’ll full on twinkmode (like wearing a t-shirt with short sleeves) instead of hoodiemoding I think.

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      I don’t see what’s brave about this… half the paragraphs mention being scared of something. Unless you mean the will to change things? idk

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        15 days ago

        being brave means being scared but doing it regardless. i also wish i was brave enough to go to something like that…

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          I suppose… Tho I haven’t done anything yet. When the time comes, my brain will be desperately looking for reasons to chicken out. I guess we’ll see how it goes…