It makes sense why not everybody can cope in that way. I’d oscillate between believing it and finding it comforting, to calling myself retarded for ever entertaining it, and at many times even priding myself on fighting back the “schizo thoughts”.

It’s not exactly a rock-solid foundation for transitioning or justifying it, and I’m not one to make neurosex up to be something so concrete. But like… as I’ve always been naturally inclined to the esoteric… and as I did have the “phantom sensations”, the “something is mismatched with spirit and body” explanation worked internally… but like, I could never look a cisoid atheist in the eye and tell them this shit without feeling insane (and I’ve yet to do that), tho I can often trust trannies to at least interpret it as the repper brain working mysteriously… which I suppose is part of why the popularity of that narrative always struck me as somewhat odd optically… as while I honestly could relate to it, perhaps more intensely than most, I don’t feel like it has particularly great optics in an increasingly secular world, nor does it encompass all or even most of the rationalizations for transition that are out there, many of which seem perfectly valid to me.