I deleted every account in one night, deleted every app, I realised I was the type of person I hated and desperately needed to change. it’s unbelievably difficult, I found myself scrolling my photo gallery and the Steam store like they were Twitter, waking up out a dissociative fugue and finding myself scrolling weird shit like that fueled my fire
what I’ve learned from that experience is replacing a bad habit with a better one helps immensely, learn a language or a skill you’ve always wanted to when you feel an impulse to scroll, find a TV series, clear out your movie/gaming/reading backlog, there’s a lot you can do instead of scrolling
Are you really human… like do you feel an essence inside… it feels like the digital is… filling something… are you full now… I dont understand what I am saying… sorry… I am really tired… thanks for the advise…
I’m going to take your answer in good faith and answer honestly, please don’t aspire to be me
but unironically no, I don’t know if other people are like this but I don’t really have an internal self of feeling unless prompted, I can feel happy, sad, depressed, etc, but if I’m not currently in a mental health episode and I sit alone in a room alone and unstimulated I feel absolutely nothing internally, like my feelings do not exist, I guess you could describe it as being empty like you said
I practiced meditative sessions (I like to think of myself as Buddhist) up to 45 minutes (sometimes an hour) and since then I’ve been able to just decide to stop thinking bar intense mental health episodes, like I can tell my brain to stop producing thought, and it’s just silence, internal silence and internal emptiness, that’s how I experience a lot of my life
This is how I feel too sometimes… but I fear maybe I once had a soul and now lost it or maybe just lost the illusion of it… maybe love is to stare into your lovers eyes and both of you recognizing your mutual emptiness…
I deleted every account in one night, deleted every app, I realised I was the type of person I hated and desperately needed to change. it’s unbelievably difficult, I found myself scrolling my photo gallery and the Steam store like they were Twitter, waking up out a dissociative fugue and finding myself scrolling weird shit like that fueled my fire
what I’ve learned from that experience is replacing a bad habit with a better one helps immensely, learn a language or a skill you’ve always wanted to when you feel an impulse to scroll, find a TV series, clear out your movie/gaming/reading backlog, there’s a lot you can do instead of scrolling
Are you really human… like do you feel an essence inside… it feels like the digital is… filling something… are you full now… I dont understand what I am saying… sorry… I am really tired… thanks for the advise…
I’m going to take your answer in good faith and answer honestly, please don’t aspire to be me
but unironically no, I don’t know if other people are like this but I don’t really have an internal self of feeling unless prompted, I can feel happy, sad, depressed, etc, but if I’m not currently in a mental health episode and I sit alone in a room alone and unstimulated I feel absolutely nothing internally, like my feelings do not exist, I guess you could describe it as being empty like you said
I practiced meditative sessions (I like to think of myself as Buddhist) up to 45 minutes (sometimes an hour) and since then I’ve been able to just decide to stop thinking bar intense mental health episodes, like I can tell my brain to stop producing thought, and it’s just silence, internal silence and internal emptiness, that’s how I experience a lot of my life
This is how I feel too sometimes… but I fear maybe I once had a soul and now lost it or maybe just lost the illusion of it… maybe love is to stare into your lovers eyes and both of you recognizing your mutual emptiness…
I never believed in the concept of a soul so I can’t elaborate on that, but I hope you find the answers you’re looking for