i have $0 to my name. i can’t afford a vial for injections let alone everything i’d need for patches

i also dont want a disgusting scab on my body 24/7 for the rest of my life. i dont want a constant reminder im a disgusting freak. being on pills as well made me suicidal. i was never able to enjoy any part of my day because i would constantly feel like shit waiting to take my pills, or feel like shit during, or after.

i cant fucking do this literall the one singular silver lining that made me consider not detrooning was the idea that it’d be only alittle poke once a month but now thats bneen ruined and a bunch of no empathy shitheads are telling me “just stop being poor hon! just stop having dysphoria hon!!!” FUCK YOU ALL OF YOUB I FUCKING HATE ALL OF YOU RULE 4 EVERYONE RIGHT NOWQ