I found a guy online to chat with (I don’t know why, I usually prefer waiting until someone approaches me in public which never happens). I really thought he’s interesting and cute, but when he turned out to be nice and gave one compliment to me I got scared and immediately blocked him and started crying because I didn’t deserve it. Only now I realised that I’ve just hurt him too.
My miserable loneliness is by my choice only.
Yeah girl that’s wrong behaviour… though you probably got scared or something?
Scared… scared of someone being nice.
Because probably you’ll open up and after you open up they can hurt you even more or something?
Girl, that’s why people choose to trust someone or not, and trust is something that slowly increases, not becomes a full thing overnight.
That’s why, choosing to trust someone requires you to have a responsibility against yourself, you need to be able to vet people to the best extent, you need to be able to pick up red flags and/or green flags where it’s due.
But, even if you trusted someone and they betrayed that trust, you need to accept it as your fault in properly vetting them. Though the betrayal is their shitty ass bitch behaviour and they are an ass person for that. But. You need to accept your losses, learn what you can from your mistakes, and continue walking. You can’t close yourself up indefinitely. You need to continue living.
That was oddly specific…
I wish it was that simple for me. I don’t know what’s going on in my head. I think I need therapy more than anything.
It’s an educated guess… Therapy can help, as its main goal is to help you realize stuff that you’re hiding from yourself…
