I found a guy online to chat with (I don’t know why, I usually prefer waiting until someone approaches me in public which never happens). I really thought he’s interesting and cute, but when he turned out to be nice and gave one compliment to me I got scared and immediately blocked him and started crying because I didn’t deserve it. Only now I realised that I’ve just hurt him too.
My miserable loneliness is by my choice only.
That was oddly specific…
I wish it was that simple for me. I don’t know what’s going on in my head. I think I need therapy more than anything.
It’s an educated guess… Therapy can help, as its main goal is to help you realize stuff that you’re hiding from yourself…