I found a guy online to chat with (I don’t know why, I usually prefer waiting until someone approaches me in public which never happens). I really thought he’s interesting and cute, but when he turned out to be nice and gave one compliment to me I got scared and immediately blocked him and started crying because I didn’t deserve it. Only now I realised that I’ve just hurt him too.
My miserable loneliness is by my choice only.

It’s an educated guess… Therapy can help, as its main goal is to help you realize stuff that you’re hiding from yourself…