Firstly, I don’t feel any recognisable dysphoria, and would probably be content to continue life as a cis man ( not trutrans ) Secondly, I don’t get aroused in any way thinking about myself as a woman, nor do I watch trans porn ( not agp ) Thirdly, I don’t tell anyone I know about being trans ( not attentionseeking ) But despite all of this i still have the urge to start estrogen every day My only working theory is shame over being a short neurodivergent man and seeking an easier path in life as my only option because im not suicidal

    • zabOP
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      27 days ago

      kinda a rant Starting e feels like it might give me freedom to express myself in ways i feel i can’t at the moment by adopting a new identity so drastic it fully changes who i am as a person -> leave behind regrets, second chance? ( idk if this makes sense?? ) but this also confuses me slightly because i haven’t messed up my life, i have friends, good relationship with family and no criminal record, so why would i feel the need for a second chance