I’ve never felt so shitty in my life like I did this past year. Before cracking my egg, I at least had the bliss of being ignorant to me being trans, cause I just thought all boys felt that way. After cracking, I had the delusion and honfidence to feel ok. Now though? I don’t even know, just feel like a lovecraftian protagonist who was hit by the cosmic horror knowledge.

The sudden realization that I’ve never even come close to passing, how moidy I actually was all this time, it makes me sick.

    • sprinkles
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      1 month ago

      but uhhh, more srsly yea it does suck, im pretty sure most sneeds are happier than me even if theyre more honish as they dont get dysphoric and spiral over small things, there is certainly bliss in ignorance as that saying goes

    • AriaLove8StringsOP
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      1 month ago

      Well yeah sry I spent 1 year on Em Ti Eff before becoming a blackpilled incel loser

      • sprinkles
        1·
        1 month ago

        yea i wasnt srs, it was just a funny choice of words considering that this is a 4t space

  • goops
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    1 month ago

    over the years i had bouts of this feeling but it’s subsided as time has gone on. sometimes i still take a mental step back and go “how tf did this happen? you had a dick and balls a decade ago and now you have tits and got your dick chopped?” as if the part of my consciousness that was holding on to being a man prior to transition rears it’s head but it usually subsides pretty quickly. sometimes i feel like there’s a man version of myself in my head that is being genuinely tortured and screaming into the void by all of this but the part that is being soothed by it is stronger and is living a much happier life. tranny self is driving and thriving, male self get fucked.