I’ve never felt so shitty in my life like I did this past year. Before cracking my egg, I at least had the bliss of being ignorant to me being trans, cause I just thought all boys felt that way. After cracking, I had the delusion and honfidence to feel ok. Now though? I don’t even know, just feel like a lovecraftian protagonist who was hit by the cosmic horror knowledge.

The sudden realization that I’ve never even come close to passing, how moidy I actually was all this time, it makes me sick.