I’ve never felt so shitty in my life like I did this past year. Before cracking my egg, I at least had the bliss of being ignorant to me being trans, cause I just thought all boys felt that way. After cracking, I had the delusion and honfidence to feel ok. Now though? I don’t even know, just feel like a lovecraftian protagonist who was hit by the cosmic horror knowledge.
The sudden realization that I’ve never even come close to passing, how moidy I actually was all this time, it makes me sick.
but uhhh, more srsly yea it does suck, im pretty sure most sneeds are happier than me even if theyre more honish as they dont get dysphoric and spiral over small things, there is certainly bliss in ignorance as that saying goes