If I had just died at ten a few months after my puberty started things would be so much better. I wouldn’t have to suffer through all this stuff, just to end up as a grotesque hulkish husk of a person.

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    It’s not unwarranted, and don’t feel guilty. They want you dead anyway, so it’s a good thing u did.

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      1 month ago

      Fair, but continuous religious trauma keeps marking me a sinner, making guilt a bit out of my control… damn… I wish cis people didn’t use religion against us like that…

      (Praying Emoji)

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          Fair, I mean I’ve established my own system of beliefs that works for me based on a mixture of absurdism and eastern orthodoxy

          Like I can’t prove there’s a god or the absence of, but eastern orthodox ritual helps me stay grounded

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              I mean I cross myself whenever approaching anything remotely anxiety inducing or dangerous… and I am extremely superstitious based on some of the ideosyncretic superstitions I learned from my mom and people around me