If I had just died at ten a few months after my puberty started things would be so much better. I wouldn’t have to suffer through all this stuff, just to end up as a grotesque hulkish husk of a person.
… this hits hard, same… sorry if this is unwarranted but I feel so guilty for surviving all of mine… so my condolences and commiserations…
Anyhow… cheers…
It’s not unwarranted, and don’t feel guilty. They want you dead anyway, so it’s a good thing u did.
Fair, but continuous religious trauma keeps marking me a sinner, making guilt a bit out of my control… damn… I wish cis people didn’t use religion against us like that…
(Praying Emoji)
This is why Buddhism and Taoism are goated
Fair, I mean I’ve established my own system of beliefs that works for me based on a mixture of absurdism and eastern orthodoxy
Like I can’t prove there’s a god or the absence of, but eastern orthodox ritual helps me stay grounded
ooooo what Eastern Orthodox rituals do u do now I’m curious
I mean I cross myself whenever approaching anything remotely anxiety inducing or dangerous… and I am extremely superstitious based on some of the ideosyncretic superstitions I learned from my mom and people around me
