Not having a vagina feels so wrong… not having a penis would lowk also feel wrong… but at least if I experienced the other kind of wrongness I’d be able to look back on my life knowing I didn’t die without ever having a vagina… I don’t want to die without ever having had a vagina, without being able to reach down expecting a hole to be there and actually finding one there for once… but then I’d feel weird about the lack of a phallus… but at least I’dve been able to experience both before death, y’know? It almost feels as good as just getting to be fully all of myself at once, at least I wouldn’t be constructing myself into some futa-fetish freakthing that only a hentai gooner could love. Transmaxxing binarily would also just be beneficial… I wish I could just get srs and then encourage bottom-growth with topical T and a pump like an actual theyfab, but no… it couldn’t be. Maybe someday we can just grow vaginas in a lab, and I can have it inserted directly under my junk… it feels like kidding myself to hold out for that, but a part of me wants to believe… the slim chance I’ll see it in my lifetime holds me back from going beyond my orchiectomy. If actually good duosex surgery got made after I did this surgical binarycope transmaxxing thingy, idk how I’d cope. I feel paralyzed. I hate being a lavenderbrained retard sometimes. Picture unrelated