I am still dysphoric but my constant anxiety has almost gone away I just feel ok somehow. I used to feel like I was almost dying since I didn’t look female yet just a few weeks ago. I am now just feeling ok that I am able to work on as gracefully as possible going from male to female. I think I didn’t need it to happen literally yesterday since it just simply wont. The urgency was in starting on the path maybe. I will probably be dooming soon enough but I feel good about getting some respite.

I’m also probably just the first step in picrel but without sneeding out and just going to work/school doing the exact same thing without overwhelming constant stress.