Yeah

I secretly only worry about the people who dont say anything about it but doom terribly ,

I had a plan

I had a means

I had a date

I had elected beneficiaries

I had my paperwork in order

I had my apology Notes

And I told nobody

Suicide is such a personal thing, I only talk about it now because I know I will never return to that place, but I lived there, inching towards running out of other ideas to stop the silent suffering

Then I murdered my testosterone instead, and pumped my body full of estrogen.

And I burned the paper that had the GPS coordinates of the gun I’d buried

And I’ve never looked back yet 😌

Same. Which is why I talk about it with my gf or therapist if I’m feeling really bad, so I don’t get away with it and actually do it. I can’t do this to my gf, it would destroy her.

It’s just a thing of closure for me, I don’t like stories without a true end

Yeah, same. But I get why people want others to know, so at least someone remembers about their existence.

Real, only times I’ve actually attempted I told no one. Every time I talk about it I end up not following through. Really makes SI lonely as fuck when you realize you can’t talk to anyone at all about it without ruining your chances of success

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lowkey real. last time i made an actual sui post and attempted to OD, people convinced me to go to the hospital and that’s one of my big regrets ngl