I think I’m getting bitter. I scrolled troonselfies for a while and I’m just fucking angry that I don’t get to have that life. I’m so close to having a full mental breakdown I can feel it. I need to hurt myself. Everything hurts. Why couldn’t I have been born a woman. My body can’t be saved by hrt. Silly me for starting at 21. I want to go back to repping it was way better. Life was grey and meh all the time and I just kinda floated through as a passive observer. But now I’m crying every night about something I lack that I’ll never get. I just want the troon thoughts to stop. I’m sick of this