I think I’m getting bitter. I scrolled troonselfies for a while and I’m just fucking angry that I don’t get to have that life. I’m so close to having a full mental breakdown I can feel it. I need to hurt myself. Everything hurts. Why couldn’t I have been born a woman. My body can’t be saved by hrt. Silly me for starting at 21. I want to go back to repping it was way better. Life was grey and meh all the time and I just kinda floated through as a passive observer. But now I’m crying every night about something I lack that I’ll never get. I just want the troon thoughts to stop. I’m sick of this
Idk how much longer I can go on like this
Has transitioning even made me happier?
I’m literally more miserable than before. How is that possible. Maybe I am faketrans and this is all just a big mistake
If I detrooned maybe I could rep and live as a normal man for a couple years. It wouldn’t be so bad. Then when I have the John 50 realization I could just kms. Wouldn’t be so ba d
Ik two fucking gigapassoids in my hobby server both are 5’6 WHY DID I HQVE TO BE THIS FUCKINF ENORMOUS AND TALL WHY WHY WHY
I won’t make it. Theres not point. I see gigapassoids on here every day. I wasn’t meant to be a woman
Transitioning won’t make me happier. I just unlocked more suffering for no reason. This is all a cruel joke. I’m not even trans anyways I’m just a fetishist. Not even a little bit fembrained. There is no woman on the inside. I could go back to repping
“life” is surreal, isn’t it
Yeah I dont like it. I’m ready to go back to nonexistence it was much better
Cant believe my body is this way. I need to break things. Yeah show your true moid honrage and go break things, ur a man after all everyone knows it’s true
Nobody cares
