i think i wouldn’t mind being the dominant one in a relationship really. i like taking care of people. and as much as i long to be taken care of myself, im scared of letting myself be vulnerable. i dont like feeling like i owe people things. i hate that sense of obligation i always feel.

but i feel like i cant really do that because ill just be seen as a predatory rapehon freak or whatever else. and while ik thats not true, its hard. because more than anything im terrified of being seen as a predator. of being seen as anything like my father was.

i was already the only male child from that sham of a marriage. i already see his face in the mirror, feel like im the heir to his monstrosity. so i never want to do anything that could even remotely be interpreted as exploitative. id rather detroon, kms, be assaulted myself, etc. than be seen as a predator.

    • AlexOP
      3·
      2 months ago

      yeah, i kind of hate it. doesnt help that im also ugly and unpassing so id be instantly labeled as a rapehon

  • nikki
    2·
    2 months ago

    omg im also really scared of being seen as like my father…

    as for feeeling like a predator, i would feel like that being submissive too, just bc like there’s no way someone could love me without the relationship being somehow manipulative. like someone would have to have rly low confidence to date me, and i wouldnt wannna do that to someone

  • Kath
    1·
    2 months ago

    :( im aorry… i get it i think