i ruined the relationship of the two people i care most about in the world, i ruined the lives of several people, i ruined my parents’ marriage, i gave someone ptsd because of the first time i tried to diy hrt, im a drug addicted freak and im never going to pass as a woman
No, your distress is not your faul. Doing diy is something you mustn’t be guilty about. You need to prioritize your own well being first. Idk about the details of ruining relationships, but if it was because of being a tranny, then it is not your fault. Did you ever chose this?
noone loves me and im an awful person
Why are you awful
i ruined the relationship of the two people i care most about in the world, i ruined the lives of several people, i ruined my parents’ marriage, i gave someone ptsd because of the first time i tried to diy hrt, im a drug addicted freak and im never going to pass as a woman
No, your distress is not your faul. Doing diy is something you mustn’t be guilty about. You need to prioritize your own well being first. Idk about the details of ruining relationships, but if it was because of being a tranny, then it is not your fault. Did you ever chose this?
it wasnt bc i was a tranny. i hurt all of them because i refused to work on my bpd because every time i tried to work on it, i ended up miserable.
Did you get professional help? Did they try to help you?
i got help but it just made me worse. most of them just bullied me for my issues