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PRECISELYYYYY i got head and gave head to a guy off Grindr and it did NOTHING for my confidence or awkwardness

Because I desperately need physical attention and sex just happens to be the most intimate form of it

I mean cuddling would cure me too but with how my life is I prolly would have to have sex, maybe even in ways I wouldn’t want, to access that and hence relieve my touch starvation

Bc I haven’t had sex in 6 years (since i started transition) or any physical intimacy besides a drunk girl kissing me a single time. Even my girl/trans friends say they love platonic touch with friends yet never even get near me. obviously it’s cause i’m trans, i know. one is an annoying hyprocrite of a theyfab who stopped talking to me tho so good riddance.

i like to think sex with a guy would feel affirming on top of pleasurable. some days i’m feral and others just depressed af tho, such is tranner life

cuddling makes me aware of my freakish proportions and that I’m too broken for healthy relationships; being used shuts off my brain and puts me in my place

in a better world cuddles would be peak though, true