memories of childhood are fuzzy and i only know the details of the traumatic moments. there’s a lot of thouse though so i have endless childhood memories anyways so it’s fine :>. but i think i came out around less than a year after i knew. and my mom accepted me, for about a week. then it turns out it was a test or something? she saw i was happy to be gendered as a woman and concluded i’m AGP faketrans because of how much it made me smile. yes she said AGP i heard it from her before i heard of it online. then we didn’t talk about it for a year, then she brought it up to check if i gave up on the delusion yet and i didn’t say much because she already abused me for many years before any of this so i knew this was going to be more bait from her to start a fight. so she lashed out, told me i will 41 (yes she said it like that) anyways if i stay trans so she won’t care about me. then she used me being trans to defend herself when it came to CPS and the rest of the family sometimes questioning the sheer extent of her abuse. it always worked lmao just told them im a tranny and then her abuse wasn’t the topic anymore. i diy-d the moment i turned 18 because i was prepared. after that it doesn’t matter anymore but yeah that’s when i knew and why i was forced to rep for like 5 or 6 years. in that time i self-isolated in school and talked to literally no one, i just couldn’t deal with having to be a man to everyone else,
my favorite moment is her saying i was abusive because i called her a transphobic TERF. it’s my favorite because i never called her any of that since she really quickly self idenitified as both of those so it wouldn’t be an insult so why call her that.
oh she said she’s transphobic but then told me later she’s not and didn’t know what it meant. she apparently thought it means a real phobia like that of spiders, which she has of trannies. when she learned it implies hate she no longer said she was that because she’s a good person and a christian so she doesn’t hate. obviously
Holy shit your mother sounds genuinely fucking horrible. Just a literal bottom-tier awful person. I’m so sorry you had to grow up with someone like that, I grew up with abusive parents too and I genuinely believe that no one deserves to go through that 🫂
I can’t think of anyone who’d deserve a childhood like this, yeah… especially since there’s very little kids can do to that would make them evil and deserving of bad…
idk I often feel like people will assume I deserved to be abused because I’m a tranny so it feels reassuring that it started way before I ever said anything about that… idk it’s like, even if I am irredeemable for what I am I was still innocent when this started
it feels horrible to have to downplay how transphobic she was though, because every time I’m worried they will flip to support her and say everything else was justified too because tranny. maybe most people wouldn’t just because of how weird it all was but my family back then always defended her with that so idk
I get how you feel. My mother also became extremely transphobic and cruel towards me when she figured out I was trans and it’s something I don’t really talk to a lot of people about - especially cis people. I just think it’s one of those things where you can really only tell other trannies about it because they’re the only people who are actually going to listen and empathise with you. It’s fucking horrible that cis people lack that much empathy for us but it’s something I’ve basically just come to terms with
yeah it’s hard to though… especially since i never knew a single other trans person irl
Yeah I understand it was the same for me for a long, long time
it feels crazy now that i moved to Budapest a few months ago kuz i see someone i assume is a trans woman every week or so but i just know no one and obviously not going to approach strangers for clocking them it’s just silly ig
Maybe you could try joining some online tranny groups for the city you live in? I imagine there’s probably got to be a few and I think it’s a good way to meet some trannies in your area without having to approach someone randomly
well i don’t know where to look for this do i just like google it or something?? do i just google trans budapest and find something?? if that’s all it took then it’s so embarassing i didn’t even try
holy shit what an asshole. Genuine evil in this world. Are you away from her? I hope so.
i recently fully cut her off but she did disowned me since she blamed me for Charlie Kirks death. but she permanently ruined me in so so many other ways i feel like the trans stuff is only a small part of it with her. she said i was a rapist before i was even 10 because my dad abused her and she told me i’m destined to rape like he did and lashed out when i said i wouldn’t
I can’t believe you personally killed Charlie Kirk
she’s schizophrenic she belived more fantastical stuff. like she actually said she’s so scared she’ll die of a woke assasin from me like Kirk did and begged me to understand she’s not transphobic. once i spent an hour calming her down she demanded i detransiton LMAO
you’re fucking kidding. JFC what an evil woman. I’m so sorry, my god. I want to hug you so bad.
thanks. i wish i could get a hug. i only escaped her fully 2 months ago and i’m stuck in limbo with no hope left now and no idea where to even try to go.
I can’t believe you’d do that to her, make her think you’re gonna kill yourself because you decided to be a tranny
what? huh? no she didn’t mind she joked about my suicide even before i came out as trans. she also threatend her own suicide and self harmed in front of me before i was even 10. not really me doing this to her here…
I can’t believe it’s your fault she abused you and threatened her own suicide and self harmed in front of you when you were 10, it’s just crazy to see an innocent woman mobbed after by Charlie Kirk’s killer
okay fair enough
