i get that mutual suffering is like a horrible way to make a friendship, im glad my friends keep me around and one of them wants me to go out with a group sometime to a rave, but like, do you find it harder to make friends even in fields of mutual interest or understanding? idk friends with me were never a strong suit i just get adopted by groups a lot.
ive been an outsider to most groups since as long as i can remember. too neurodivergent for normies, seemingly not weird enough for the autists in my town. i wanna make new irl friends soon tho, but due to circumstances i dont get the oppurtunity to. making new friends might be hard but its something i want to do for myself.
i felt that way in high school, tho one of my best friends that kept in contact with me was in my high school. i ended up being autistic and sullying a bunch tho because i was stupid and depressed, but id like to think they are doing well. tbh i think everyone has a chance but the more they shortchange themselves or feel like outcasts (even if its “true”) have a harder time. i just try to act friendly, but not too suck up. idk im rambling.