i can’t stop ruminating on this it’s really bad i hate it i don’t want anyone to know and i dont know how im supposed to get help

  • qz14OP
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    10 hours ago

    part of me weirdly wants it to be true (and not just like, adhd or something) which makes me worry im making this all up but i also really don’t want it to be true

    • noneday
      2·
      10 hours ago

      I get where you’re coming from, we want things like this to be true because it’ll validate your suffering, you know that desire is “wrong” but that doesn’t get rid of it. Try to hold both in your mind at once allowing the conflicting feelings to exist, don’t try to reason your way around it because you can’t, you’ll just keep ruminating

      • qz14OP
        1·
        10 hours ago

        yeah im just a larper tbh lol except idk

        • noneday
          2·
          10 hours ago

          no, I’ll never agree with that cause you’re very clearly not a larper. Sorry :(

          • qz14OP
            1·
            10 hours ago

            i will go to therapy and they will be like

            ohhhh this bitch knows about dissociation and read about it therefore she is basically a tiktok theyfab with 10000 different DSMP characters in their head and must b e treated like a stupid child