Idk but I think my brain is permanently broken because I wake up and my very first thought in morning is “what if I am faketrans” and then it’s just this flood of thoughts and it’s been happening for a while now… immediately

“What if I am fake, can transition still save me, will it work, does this uncomfortable feeling in the morning count as dysphoria, am I feminine enough, do I even deserve it, what about family, what do I even feel…”

And idk… I’m not here to cry wolf again and ask if I am faketrans… that would be dumb but I am just idk kinda feeling weird… I wake up and the first thing I feel is this weird feeling of dread…

This lingering discomfort… and silence.

And then I check Tranistan and my head gets louder but I guess… it’s time I get out of bed now anyway.

Have a nice day everybody <3

:/

  • iwonderwhy21
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    3 days ago

    I check this place because its the closest to a community that actually understands how I feel.

    In any case are you on HRT or not ?? I used to wonder about the whole faketrans thing too. But just 2 months of HRT confirmed to me that I should have started this years ago…