Then somedays I feel like it was a stupid choice to start transitioning because of how bad I look. But then a few hours later or the next day I’m thinking maybe I over reacted because I don’t look as bad as I thought, that I do have a good base, that I just need to keep losing weight and some makeup I could pass and be considered conventionally pretty. Then a while later it’ll be like I switched back to be horrible to look at. Kinda like a loop.
Anybody else struggle with this or is just like straight dooming all the time?
I’ve been dooming less about it recently and have just started trusting that the pretty one is the real one and that the people around me are right because I know they would tell me otherwise. I’m just operating and thinking of my face as the days where it’s fine, its lead to the warping happening less often. Sure when I do see the manly ugly face it hurts worse then it use to but its less often then months ago. I think I’m getting more realistic about how I actually look as a result.