Then somedays I feel like it was a stupid choice to start transitioning because of how bad I look. But then a few hours later or the next day I’m thinking maybe I over reacted because I don’t look as bad as I thought, that I do have a good base, that I just need to keep losing weight and some makeup I could pass and be considered conventionally pretty. Then a while later it’ll be like I switched back to be horrible to look at. Kinda like a loop.

Anybody else struggle with this or is just like straight dooming all the time?