idk how to feel about this. she looks better than me, if only by virtue of having been transitioning longer. we’re both pretty moidy but I’m not out.

    • alteracionOP
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      2 months ago

      I can’t tell which words are missing or autocorrected here could you restate that

        • alteracionOP
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          2 months ago

          I’m barely even trans tbh I just take estrogen. who I am is not who I’d choose to be but I don’t know who I’d choose to be & whoever they are they aren’t the real me because I’m empty inside. & it’s really true that I don’t know who that is, I’ve never seen “Her” because even when I get time alone it’s just the same old dope there with me, even if I wasn’t so manly I don’t know how to be someone else. for all my turmoil & neurosis I am ultimately just a chill guy. if I wasn’t so chill maybe I’d’ve transitioned earlier but the problem kinda solves itself in that way I suppose.

            • alteracionOP
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              2 months ago

              I’m not DIYing I’m doing informed consent from my university’s pharmacy

                • alteracionOP
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                  2 months ago

                  probably, although it doesn’t really feel like pretending, it just feels like things are what they are and the world keeps turning