I am able to stand naked in front of the mirror… it doesn’t feel great but also it doesn’t feel horrible…
I don’t understand how dypshoria feels… sometimes it feels like dysphoria isn’t even real… which makes me so faketrans to be honest… because for you all… of course dysphoria is real… but for me… idk what even counts as dysphoria or how it feels like…
I don’t have any emotions… I’m just kinda numb tbh…
Yesterday I slept in bed half naked… it didn’t really bother me… yes I felt slightly uncomfortable and tried not looking at my hairy chest and tried covering myself with the sheets all the time and all that…
But like… I don’t actually feel dysphoria clearly… physically or mentally… I don’t flinch when called sir or a man or he… it’s just what I am used to honestly…
Facial hair makes me uncomfortable and depressed but I’ve hadn’t shaved until yesterday for two weeks and yes I did feel depressed but I didn’t have a problem touching it or looking into the mirror…
I still felt better once I shaved… like a fog lifted… but that’s not enough… that’s not enough dysphoria to actually justify transition to be honest and mixed with all my mental illness… transitioning seems ludicrous.
Spending my entire 20s transitioning, losing my family, my fertility, my youth, and then failing and not passing and ending up 30y old and lost in life… how is that supposed to be a food plan in the slightest…
When on the contrary I could man up, looksmaxx, try switching majors to guarantee a job later, try getting a girlfriend, marry with 28y old and then just be an actual worthwhile human being instead of an ugly tranny failure at 30 who transitioned because of mentall illness, escapism and no tangible dysphoria.
So… is dysphoria actually real and how does it feel?
Usually men don’t like it at all when they get fed something that knocks their cock out. Most people would just get dysphoric if they got tranner doses.
I also wouldn’t like it when it stops working down there… would make me worried to be honest…
See… faketrans
Just put some testosterone gel on your princess wand, gurl
(yes, I’m memeing, but you can do that)
Eh okay… first i dont know where to get that stuff from and also i am not sure what the literature says about it and also wouldnt that cause issues with feminisation possibly…
But eh… thanks i guess for the information… (r/mtf Flashbacks) 💀
I certainly can’t help with that, putting testosterone on/in my body, ayy ell emm oh, couldn’t be me.
But I believe pooners are the right people to ask that.
Yeah… where my bros at hahaha
Hmm… but still how do I avoid the situation of idk… if after six monthes I say… oh no… this feels uncomfortable… I feel bad… then people will just say it’s dysphoria and push me forward… but what if they are wrong?
You can stop oestrogen at any time, unlike testosterone it has very subtle changes, six months is nothing, you would be able to detransition if you felt like it.
Yeah… makes sense… ugh… my brain hates me just so much… yk what I wanted to respond right now… “yeah but what if I develop trans delusion”
See, you managed to intercept a circling, unproductive thought and culled it. That’s the first step to stopping your spiralling. Very good, keep it up.
Thank you 😞🫂