I am able to stand naked in front of the mirror… it doesn’t feel great but also it doesn’t feel horrible…

I don’t understand how dypshoria feels… sometimes it feels like dysphoria isn’t even real… which makes me so faketrans to be honest… because for you all… of course dysphoria is real… but for me… idk what even counts as dysphoria or how it feels like…

I don’t have any emotions… I’m just kinda numb tbh…

Yesterday I slept in bed half naked… it didn’t really bother me… yes I felt slightly uncomfortable and tried not looking at my hairy chest and tried covering myself with the sheets all the time and all that…

But like… I don’t actually feel dysphoria clearly… physically or mentally… I don’t flinch when called sir or a man or he… it’s just what I am used to honestly…

Facial hair makes me uncomfortable and depressed but I’ve hadn’t shaved until yesterday for two weeks and yes I did feel depressed but I didn’t have a problem touching it or looking into the mirror…

I still felt better once I shaved… like a fog lifted… but that’s not enough… that’s not enough dysphoria to actually justify transition to be honest and mixed with all my mental illness… transitioning seems ludicrous.

Spending my entire 20s transitioning, losing my family, my fertility, my youth, and then failing and not passing and ending up 30y old and lost in life… how is that supposed to be a food plan in the slightest…

When on the contrary I could man up, looksmaxx, try switching majors to guarantee a job later, try getting a girlfriend, marry with 28y old and then just be an actual worthwhile human being instead of an ugly tranny failure at 30 who transitioned because of mentall illness, escapism and no tangible dysphoria.

So… is dysphoria actually real and how does it feel?

  • DysphoriaGirlOP
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    2 days ago

    Yeah but it’s not the same as zooming out of your brain and being unable to move despite wanting to… which as somebody who’s seen that happen with PTSD patients… is what clinically counts as dissociation… not the same as being numb… I am just numb

    • CutePlushies
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      2 days ago

      “Dissociation is a concept which concerns a wide array of experiences, ranging from a mild emotional detachment from the immediate surroundings, to a more severe disconnection from physical and emotional experiences.” - Extended dictionary definition

      “a disruption of and/or discontinuity in the normal integration of several key mental functions. This disruption typically affects: (a wide list of things, but notably) Identity, Perception, Emotion” - DSM5

      99% of people who are dissociating are able to move…