I am able to stand naked in front of the mirror… it doesn’t feel great but also it doesn’t feel horrible…
I don’t understand how dypshoria feels… sometimes it feels like dysphoria isn’t even real… which makes me so faketrans to be honest… because for you all… of course dysphoria is real… but for me… idk what even counts as dysphoria or how it feels like…
I don’t have any emotions… I’m just kinda numb tbh…
Yesterday I slept in bed half naked… it didn’t really bother me… yes I felt slightly uncomfortable and tried not looking at my hairy chest and tried covering myself with the sheets all the time and all that…
But like… I don’t actually feel dysphoria clearly… physically or mentally… I don’t flinch when called sir or a man or he… it’s just what I am used to honestly…
Facial hair makes me uncomfortable and depressed but I’ve hadn’t shaved until yesterday for two weeks and yes I did feel depressed but I didn’t have a problem touching it or looking into the mirror…
I still felt better once I shaved… like a fog lifted… but that’s not enough… that’s not enough dysphoria to actually justify transition to be honest and mixed with all my mental illness… transitioning seems ludicrous.
Spending my entire 20s transitioning, losing my family, my fertility, my youth, and then failing and not passing and ending up 30y old and lost in life… how is that supposed to be a food plan in the slightest…
When on the contrary I could man up, looksmaxx, try switching majors to guarantee a job later, try getting a girlfriend, marry with 28y old and then just be an actual worthwhile human being instead of an ugly tranny failure at 30 who transitioned because of mentall illness, escapism and no tangible dysphoria.
So… is dysphoria actually real and how does it feel?
Cis men are not numb and unfeeling. YOU are numb because you are dissociated.
I am numb because I am mentall ill and depressed and have no meaning in life… wouldn’t it then make sense trying to fix all that and then if I still have dysphoria… I know that it’s true dysphoria and I’m actually trans… so why not therapy for like a year and then transition afterwards… to be sure
Saaaaym
Do you think it would be smart for me to transition… did it help you personally?
I’m in the same situation as you, i haven’t transitioned yet… Not sure etc etc you know the whole deal. We can try to figure it out i think…
We definitely should.
I’m genuinely just not really sure how to answer that because when i was in your situation I just transitioned and it turned out to be real.
Lucky you then… but what if it doesn’t for me… I can’t win against uncertainty… and if I take this leap of faith… the price might be to high, the chance of failure is too high… it’s completely unreasonable and insane to do it… for what… being pretty… being a woman… at this point i don’t even know what words even mean anymore…
Wtf is gender… what the fuck is a tree?
Why can’t you just take HRT for a bit and if you don’t like it stop?
Because if I don’t like it… people will just tell me thats dysphoria speaking and to continue… also there is the risk of a placebo effect…
It doesn’t solve the uncertainty problem… like not fully at lest… I guess.
The first is possible to the degree that people would tell you not to stop if you said you were stopping but were clearly still dysphoric like “I’m stopping because I’m a hon” rather than “I’m stopping because it feels wrong”
What are you talking about placebo effect
Like if you say “this drug will make you happy” but there is no proof for that but the person believe it… then it will actually make them happy despite that simply being because the person believes it… not because of the drug itself.