like what am I doing with my life?? got to one of the better unis in my country and instead of socializing, searching for a job and living my “best years”, doing literally anything enjoyable, I doomscroll and bedrot all day, go to sleep at 2pm. I’m not even pursuing my hobbies, too busy searching for ropefuel. can’t even force myself to eat most days jfc. I larp as a smart compscihon and then proceed to write 10 lines of code a week. I literally do nothing at all while peers strive to improve. all that because I deluded myself into thinking I was supposed to be born a girl. I should really just rep and do better… how do I quit that I’m going insannneee
I feel that :<. It’s hard to get out of that head space, usually when I need to lock in to do something I try to find the will to take a shower and do a small chore I’ve been putting off for a while… It doesn’t make me as efficient as I wish to be, but at the least it breaks the constant dooming cycle