Titetle. If i start hormones my mother is going to kill herself probably, My extended family will cut contact with me. I love them all. I’ll also be seen as a freak by society, What the fuck do i do? Prettyboy cope? I can’t even do that with how masculine my genes will eventually make me. Do i quit and become a chaser to fulfill myself in meta attraction? Or just… i don’t really know. Every close one i know tells me I’m a man and I’m deluding myself. That I lost my mind from lack of human interaction. Somewhat true also, but they can never know truly how it’s like.

I’m gonna need a ffs anyway at this point. Should’ve started at 20. I’m 22 now. Fuck me.