Recently I’ve had easter break from highschool and stuff, and while I’ve experienced some dysphoric episodes, most of the time I was feeling pretty neutral and didn’t actively feel dysphoric. But maybe that was due to the fact that I was avoiding observing myself in the mirror in a conscious way, and when I did I did in soft lighting conditions and not thinking about my masculinity. I’ve also been playing videogames and watching YouTube all the time, so most of the time I was detached from reality. But the fact that I didn’t feel constant dysphoria, makes me feel like I’m faketrans. Some users here are actively suicidal and depressed, meanwhile I had a blissful week of almost doing nothing and being a bum, not even experiencing much dysphoria. I genuinely think I don’t belong here, I don’t suffer enough. If I’m autistic in any way, all of this might be just a hyperfixation and I’m not really trans. There was an user recently complaining about being true fake trans due to acquiring reverse dysphoria, I’m scared of such fate which makes me more hesitant to take HRT, but back when I was feeling super bad I’ve sworn to myself I’ll take it no matter what.