pre-transition i saw a lot of troons on twitter saying “if youre not a prehrt luckshit in at least some ways or a youngshit then its basically over”. this gave me a lot of anxiety but i trooned out anyways since its not like i had much of a choice.
honestly the more trans timelines i see, the more i realize they werent just being bitter. its sadly just true. if you dont at least have a couple of lucky features then it really is over unless you can afford multiple surgeries.
im still gonna effortmaxx, but it really does feel futile. im going to be pushing this boulder up this hill forever. ill have to grieve and accept that this is just the way things are.
effortmaxxing and surgeries is the way to go, because we live in a godless world
since i need multiple surgeries it seems like blowing my brains out is probably the way to go, once i have the courage to do so. otherwise im just holding onto a nonsensical pipe dream to sustain my will to live.
nah, definitely not. things can change.
im not sure how things can change when ill never be able to afford whats needed, but i hope youre right, somehow
insurance, opportunities… even a lucky go fund me. I think you’ll see.