If burn victims, horribly malformed, disabled people, conjoined twins, other mutilated people, are all able to live with themselves and accept themselves, then why can’t I? Why is that.
If burn victims, horribly malformed, disabled people, conjoined twins, other mutilated people, are all able to live with themselves and accept themselves, then why can’t I? Why is that.
But why was I able to accept myself as a child. Why did I not have those feelings before I was 16. I only had subtle signs at most.
I could say that “I accepted myself” as a kid despite having extremely conflicting views of certain things and aspects that I couldn’t really grasp until I was more of an adult, but in my own opinion and experience I wasn’t given the chance to explore, and I was being abused on top of it, so…. I couldn’t tell you what was going through your mind, but going through puberty (at 16 in your own words) and starting to have dysphoric tendencies is pretty revealing you kind of hated the idea of being your birth sex, if not at least a little uncomfortable with it.
I’m 18 now, yet I have almost no memory on what I was thinking, but I’m 80% sure I wasn’t having anything near troon thoughts or discomfort, but there’s a couple of little things I could mark as “signs”. I was okay with inserting myself as male, I was completely okay but then something changed and I can’t remember what. I may be an actual case of ROGD, because I’ve started off as a femboy, as I remember my first instances of this were idolizing and wanting to be like one anime character lukako from steins gate. But back then I had no identity at all. Literally my only identity was liking science and stuff and I’ve never cared about my presentation.
The subtle signs I was talking about was wanting long hair in kindergarten, but not because girls had it, because other boy was able to have it. I also didn’t like my body hair when it started growing.