Is dysphoria a constant thing to you? I personally don’t feel it completely everyday, it’s not an agonizing pain but a kind of weak sadness. Sometimes I feel indifferent/apathetic, sometimes I break down crying. I can’t tell if what I have is really dysphoria or not. It feels like I don’t have enough negative feelings for it to count as dysphoria.
It is active if I perceive myself as male. For example when I’m looking in the mirror, when I’m in the public, when society reminds that I’m a male, when I remind myself, etc.
I usually do not experience it while being distracted, using the internet, procrastinating, being focused, perceiving myself as female, etc.
It ranges from apathy, indifference, to sadness, wishness of things being different, to not accepting reality, anger, denial, to despair, extreme sadness, suicidal thoughts, agony
I usually experience apathy the most. Sometimes I get mental breakdowns and feel suicidal.
I do not think I’ve ever perceived myself as masculine in a positive light. The weirdest thing which I’ve experienced was being attracted to my male body, but hating and despising those features, wishing to be feminine.
What makes me faketrans is the fact that I somehow can identify myself with male characters in media like anime and stuff. But I also do with female ones. Maybe there’s just more male main characters than female ones.