like a month ago i discovered this girl was from my area we exchanged each other’s discord and chatted a bit she said we could meet someday but i’m scared to do so

it’s been years since i last talked or hung out with other people (that aren’t my parents) or strangers i don’t have any friends and i’m a mess when talking irl and i don’t know how to hold a conversation i’m very awkward to be around i practically have 0 social skills

i’m also kind of intimidated(?) by her from the small convo we had she seems to have such a different life than mine she has lots of friends, a partner, studies and goes to classes, etc and she passes while i’m a stupid neet that doesn’t even pass a little i feel very out of place i don’t want to ‘taint’ her life with my presence or be a bother

still i feel like it’d be nice if we met i just wish i were a more presentable and a better version of myself but i think it’s better if it doesn’t happen