i was always forced and abused while my brothers weren’t. i wasn’t allowed to do anything. i couldn’t even grow out my hair until i was 20. i was abused, gaslighted, and forced to. do things my dad wanted that he likes my entire fucking life. why did i have to be the old worthless subhuman unlovable freak. i genuinely just need to kill myself. my brothers weren’t treated like this. they could say no to these things; they weren’t abused and threatened