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they dont. i treat it like the demon on my shoulder, but like how lucifer gave humans forbidden knowledge its kind of self-agonizing.
I think I was messed up being created like a missing part of me not perfect
yeah but a lot of people are like that. trans people have the entire sort of “personal belonging” gone tho. most people dont even have to think about it to that degree, unless they are like born disfigured or sick or just too ugly. its the same group of suffering, just under different banners. made me more empathetic, honestly. and perfection is ideal, and there isnt an ideal reachable, as your mind projects wants as needs and vice versa. perfect is how you stab yourself.
I just don’t want to look visually trans I want to pass best case scenario for me :(
its a goal tbh. i dont know how to help you get there without platitudes that really just are words. its literally the dao. you suffer to get better. whether you need reassurance or being held or whatever else, you can find that here or elsewhere if you try hard enough. im sorry it hurts :(.
cissoids don’t have to ever try
yeah they just have to suffer through other things, like self-inflicted desires, or people-pleasing, or sickness, or lack or perfection, or literally what everyone suffers through. its just that the certain sufferings are unknown or not to the depth that we feel it. lack of suffering in certain departments leads to a lack or detrimental amount of empathy to those who do suffer through those things. i would argue the suffering makes the goal sweeter when you reach it, or you start to realize in your own peace that the goal was not as lofty as you thought through other pieces of fulfillment. sounds reductive, but its literally the way you start to acknowledge things suck ass enough to clear your mind and start the trek. i hope you get what you want.
i don’t even have the effort to write long ass replies fuck
