I think maybe being around the board and 4tran could have fucked me over since everyone is so much younger than me. Being 25 I think in most places online is seen as not terribly old for transition while here I see people doom about being as young as 16 and starting HRT. Not making a comment on others peoples right to doom.

I just feel like the perfect middle point of not being able to accept I’m old and fucked then becoming able to relate to other places online or being young enough I would be able to logically feel confident that I can transition into something not disgusting. Or maybe I am old and fucked then I’m just trying to logically escape being that by believing I’m in the middle.

    • ebrickhonOP
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      5 days ago

      I agree with you. I lost my early 20s to becoming my dad’s caregiver so I think in the wake of his passing the potential of losing any more time to get to live my life just hurts. Life has been feeling like it’s just flying by where I used to feel like people were so much older than me now I look at someone who is 50 and I feel like I’m going to be there before I know it. I hope if transition is correct for me it might allow everything to slow down a bit so I can enjoy my life before it’s over.