Oh my god dysphoria is back, how could i ever think i was a larping moid??? I hate the way my face developed into this… perfectly male form. I hate how my hair fell out. I hate how my face became this ugly. I hate it. Hate it. It was fine when i was a teenager i actually looked pretty and nice and not this moided masculine deformed form. What the fuck am i? Fuck fuck i think I’m having a panic attack my chest feels tight. Fuck how can i ever live with myself? It’s irreversable!!! I wanna cry so much but i can’t it just doesn’t start. I think I’m scared, what the fuck do i do now?
Where you at… maybe you can to another and do it there… how much money you’ve got… you probably need to pay out of pocket… you can make it… I believe in you
Thank you so much… I’ll have to somehow get into a school to go abroad probably, if i can’t do that stuff with a tourist visa… And i have a school I’m studying in already 😭😭
You could save up money and then literally take the plan or train and go somewhere, already having booked an appointment, show up, pay, do the freezing and leave… hope you’ve got money for all that… God, I really hope you do
Thank you, I’ll need to save up and/or need to find an opportunity and uh, reason for going abroad though but i think i can do it in a few months?? I’m not sure :( i probably can though.
I hope you’ll be able to… but don’t let it hinder you from at least trying HRT for like 3 weeks… won’t immediately destroy your fertility…
Alright, I’ll try… probably ugh. Fuck i hate this situation
It’s sadly very complicated… good luck 🫂