I deserved neglect… I deserved abuse… I deserved being hit… I deserved being locked in closets… I deserved losing the things I found sentimental… I deserved rape… I deserved shame… I deserved guilt… I deserved the threats… I deserved all the things that have happened to me over the years… I will have deserved death when it comes… It is my penance… I am evil… I am not Diane… Thats not a person who exists… thats a person I made up in my mind… I am evil… I deserve all of these things… in a next life maybe I can be granted my peaceful existence… but not this one… I was given a curse to be transgender… I will never be a complete human… my peace was taken from me… my purity… all stolen… I will never have my peace… and I do not deserve peace… this is my penance…
Why though… what makes you feel that way
I am transgender and that makes me evil
I don’t think that makes you evil… why do you feel like being trans makes you evil?
It makes me less human… I dont like it…
No… you don’t deserve any of that…
The people who hurt you… they are the ones who should do penance… the ones who are to blame… they are the ones who did wrong… not you…
