I hit my head out of anger not that long ago then went to use the bathroom. I noticed the walls looked like they were melting and or warping. Im giving myself brain damage and now I’m sitting here on my bed crying at 6 am with no sleep. Im getting fucking raped by stress. im even genuinely scared of the sky (especially night sky) now because the shear size of it feels suffocating.

I have a fucked warp sense of time too, and I think years of being isolated is catching up to me drastically. im a fucking retard with brain damage now, even if I attempted to socialize again the mental damage is already done. im fucking stupid and very unstable now.