and i’m such a fool

because i should have already started hrt years ago

now every single day i’m haunted by these past years

sometimes they feel so real that i can change the past for a second, before i snap back to reality

all i can do is move on, but i don’t want to, because how am i supposed to live after wasting all that time?

it was supposed to be the best time of my life

now i got nothing to be happy for, excited for, looking forward to

  • Ya'll_Are_Bots (Tay)
    1·
    6 days ago

    “now i got nothing to be happy for, excited for, looking forward to”

    That’s a skill issue, I’m excited to be a middle aged poetry lady, and I’m really looking forward to being a cute piano playing old woman

      • Ya'll_Are_Bots (Tay)
        1·
        6 days ago

        Again, skill issue,

        Awareness of inexorable mortality is literally the cornerstone of human consciousness,

        Nobody wants to, But we all do,

        So like, are you going to pretend that 5 years from now you won’t be saying “why did I waste those years ?” If you don’t actively do something different with The present and the near future?

        • TotalComplexityOP
          11·
          6 days ago

          Anything I do now I could’ve already done but I didn’t. I don’t want to live with that. Honestly I really wonder if I should just kms.

          • Ya'll_Are_Bots (Tay)
            1·
            6 days ago

            Remember this moment in 2 years, and then use it as motivation to make the most of the next 2 years ✌🏻